This story took me a little while to put down and sort through. However, at the end of the day, what I’ve always said and believed showed itself through this story. What am I talking about? Trust your gut; especially as a woman. It’s the strongest defense you have to know if something is right or wrong.
Here’s what happened:
How it started.
We met at a party of a mutual friend. He approached my friend and I, got us champagne, and in conversation, I slowly started to realize that he was checking off my list of things I look for. Career driven, outgoing, travel junkie, plus he was cute and just seemed nice. Also, turns out we lived two blocks away from each other. For the first time ever, I had a thought jump into my head, “Is this it??”
My gut feeling
Fast forward a few weeks, after several phone conversations and dates, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was OFF. It was weird to me to even feel that way because he was, by far, the nicest guy I had dated–treated me well, complimented me, listened when I talked (I mean really listened and remembered what I said).
But, I kept having this thought that I was the other woman in his life, and I felt like it was only a matter of time before the other shoe dropped.
(insert horrified emoji)
It made no sense to me why I was thinking this way. For some time I thought the fact that I had never been with someone so nice was making me paranoid that it was fake. Sad right?
Because I questioned these thoughts, what I said earlier, on how important it is to trust your gut? Yea, I ignored it.
The truth: My Gut was Right
Finally, after weeks of feeling this way, I asked our mutual friend about him (honestly, I should’ve done this in the beginning, lesson learned). Turns out, he used to be married, something he never mentioned. To top it off, it was unclear to this mutual friend if he was divorced or separated (they weren’t super close), but it was rumored that his marriage ended because he cheated. Supposedly, he has a reputation amongst his friends for being a womanizer.
You can imagine how I felt after finding all this out. For one thing, I felt embarrassed to have even been involved with someone with this history; and another, I kicked myself for not asking this mutual friend about him BEFORE we started hanging out (I mean, DUH).
Third, I should have trusted my gut feeling! However crazy it seemed, however weird those thoughts, my instincts were on point in a way I never imagined was possible.
Firstly, I forgave myself for not asking this mutual friend sooner rather than later (this took a while, I will say). Honestly, when you meet someone organically like that, I think its normal to assume that they must be ok.
Second, I will never, EVER, question my gut feelings ever again. I’ve dated some terrible guys in the past, and never have I ever assumed that I was “the other woman”, until now. So needless to say, I will always trust my gut in the future, no questions asked.
I’ve always believed that a woman’s instincts are not only her strongest guide but also her best source of protection. Now, I’d like to add that no matter how ridiculous your gut feeling may seem, you have to listen. It’s not scientific and there’s no rhyme or reason as to why certain feelings come up, but when they do, you owe it to yourself to pay attention. Acknowledge that the universe is watching out for you, and tread carefully.
If I had not trusted my instincts in this situation, it would have delayed me asking my friend for her opinion, which in turn could have delayed my finding out the truth. Imagine all the potential time wasted and heartache to recover from.
Reminder: Always Trust Your Gut
Whether you’re a seasoned dater or just starting to put your toes in the water, trust what you feel and trust what you sense. I don’t think experience is necessary to hone your instincts; I think honing your instincts comes from simply listening to them.
When you feel something is off–accept that it probably is.
When you think someone is lying to you–don’t be afraid to ask more questions.
If you feel unsure about whether someone is right for you–give yourself all the time you need to figure it out.
Don’t force yourself into a situation if you’re feeling uncomfortable just for the sake of being with someone.
Be aware–pay attention to the situation, and your response, and protect yourself
Be strong–and walk away if you have to
Be Brave–and ask all the questions that pop into your head. The sooner you have answers, the sooner you’ll know how to proceed. No time wasted 🙂
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Sanjana is a physician anesthesiologist, avid traveler, and entrepreneur. She founded The Female Professional in order to give women a voice and a platform to express themselves. With her experiences as a physician, as a CEO of a startup, and as a writer, she understands the struggles and frustrations that women face. She also understands what it takes to move past those things and come out on top. Through this platform, Sanjana aims to empower women to be their best, authentic, selves, achieve work/life balance, and live life to the fullest.